Archive for March 21st, 2009

My Life Would Suck Without YOU v.2

My life truly would suck without God.  Looking back there have been many times when He has pulled me out of the misery that I brought upon myself because of doing life “my way.”  I can only imagine where I would be if the following example ended with me ignoring God’s leading…

It was 13 years ago that I was working at a restaurant and feeling over-worked and under-paid when I began to take money from the nightly deposits.  Over the course of 9 months I had accumulated somewhere around ten thousand dollars.  It was one day when I was hiking the Presidential Range and I was looking deeply at where my life had brought me to that I re-encountered God.  It was on top of Mt. Jefferson that I heard the voice of God speaking so clearly to my spirit.  “You screwed up, go home and fix it.”  And I did.  The next day I went in to work and called in my District Manager and shared my whole story with him.  The police were involved and then the State of NH got involved and then 10 months later I found myself in jail.jefferson-mt001

Now, I could have easily turned away from God.  I could have used that time as an excuse to blame God for messing up my life.  But I didn’t.  I chose to follow God even closer.  I chose to commit my life to His service.  I knew that He had called me to be a youth pastor years before but I had walked away.  It was at that time that I answered His call.  For the past 11 years I have been able to pastor youth at GCC.  I wouldn’t change it for anything.  My prayer is that at age 75 I will continue to  have an influence in youth ministry.

This time in my life was very difficult to walk through.  I knew what I had to do and I knew where God was calling me to.  The consequences of my actions and choices led me into quite a pit.  I feel like David as he wrote Psalm 40 throughout this experience.

I waited patiently for the LORD; 
       he turned to me and heard my cry. He lifted me out of the slimy pit, 
       out of the mud and mire; 
       he set my feet on a rock 
       and gave me a firm place to stand.

 He put a new song in my mouth, 
       a hymn of praise to our God. 
       Many will see and fear 
       and put their trust in the LORD.

I have seen God use my past, my struggles, and my embarrassment to reveal even more of His glory to those around me. 

How has God pulled you out of a poor choice?